# Raut Senja Ayah Bonda #

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Haaa...dah lama tak update blog ni !~ Malas la tapi cuti aritu tetibe rasa rajin nak menulis something. So, dpt la update blog ni. Tak salah rasanya nak guna blog ni nak luahkan isi hati yg lama dok pendam sorg2. Lantak la apa org nak ckp kan. Suke baca, tak suke tak yah la baca blog ni. Ehehehe :)

Hisk, nape la dlm kepala ni tak leh nak lupa cerita yg aku dgr time cuti aritu. Annoying gile. Ni bleh ganggu study aku ni kalo ari-ari dok pk pasal tu je. Dah la sem ni final sem aku, kena score gile-gile plak tu. Tapi tu la..haih !~ Makin nk lupa makin dok ingat. Marah? Sedih? Meluat? Menyampah? Gembira? Redha? Aku tak tau nak ckp apa dah. Dah immune senarnye but it's too much lew. Jangan la ingat aku diam je selama ni, leh buat sesuke hati kan. Jgn cabar kesabaran aku la. Ayoiiyoiii (!_!) OK ! aku sedih dan marah dgn apa yg dh jadi. FULL STOP ~

Spoil mood tol la..eeeee tak suke ! tak suke ! tak suke ! BENCI... okdadiam ~

-chow chin chow-

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# Harta? Kaya? Harta? Kaya? #

Sekadar renungan…tiada kaitan dengan yang hidup mahupun yang telah meninggal dunia.

Ada apa dengan duit ringgit, harta kekayaan? Tak boleh bawak mati pun. Tak boleh bawak masuk kubur pun. Sekadar pinjaman untuk hidup kat dunia ni je. Tak payah la nak sombong, bongkak, riak, takbur dengan apa yang kita ada tu. Orang lain lebih lagi tapi tak bangga diri pun. Buat orang menyampah + meluat je. Jangan sampai satu hari tuhan tarik balik apa yang Dia dah bagi tu. Bawak-bawak la bersyukur, berterima kasih banyak-banyak. Buat amal jariah, lakukan apa yang wajib + patut buat. Tak payah nak bangga-bangga diri takut nanti satu hari rezeki tu tuhan ambik balik sekelip mata ja. Zaman sekarang ni balasan tunai, dah tak hutang-hutang lagi.

Bila difikirkan balik baik berkawan dengan orang miskin=hidup susah daripada berkawan dengan orang kaya=hidup senang. Tapi bukan semua orang kaya tu teruk. Ada jugak yang berhati mulia, ikhlas hati dan perbuatan. Cuma kebanyakan bila dah senang sikit, mula lupa masa susah. Hmmm, duit banyak harta bertimbun pun tapi kalau hidup tak aman bahagia tak guna jugak. Biar tak banyak duit, tak ada harta tapi hidup ceria gembira. Pada aku, apa-apa pun biarlah yang bersederhana. Janji yang penting hidup penuh dengan kebahagiaan, kasih-sayang. Penting sangat-sangat.

Entry ini sekadar menganalisa keadaan semasa. Itu sahaja. Tidak lebih daripada itu. Ada mata lihat. Ada telinga dengar. Ada akal nilai dengan kebijaksanaan.

# Sweet 22nd ^_^ #

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANIS SAYANG !!!!!

Sweet 22nd !~

semoga dipanjangkan umur..dimurahkan rezeki..dikuatkan iman..

hidup aman bahagia dunia akhirat..

Ha ! nk tmbh lagi satu : semoga dipercepatkan jodoh dengan "ehem ehem" ahahahahaha =))

love u my friend...muah muah :-* hope this friendship last forever !~ insya-Allah

# True love or just pretending to love? #

p/s: Excuse me for this entry or else you can ignore if you don’t want to read it. It’s kind of emotional expression. But still, you can take it as a lesson for your life.

2008 has past and now, I think its not too late to welcome 2009..it just the beginning of february. I hope for a better life this year. I wish to end my study successfully. I want to struggle as hard as I can, strive for the excellent and always pray for ever-lasting bless from God. I pray for a good result definitely from my hard work and I’m ready for the consequences as well. It’s quite late actually but I still have time and can work out for it. Always believe in a second chance. It’s a must! Anyway for certain people, I am not wasting the ‘money’ if I’m not performed in my study. I got it in my way before. Take note of it. I’m not being arrogant or whatever but just for a reminder. Sorry for the statement.

2009 just started. I don’t know what else should I say but I’m really tired to handle all these things again and again. It’s very frustrating and I have a question, when will all these repeating situations are going to stop? Can you just sincerely love us? We are not strangers. Is it not enough for everything that have done before? Can you live this life happily ever after? There is no benefit at all if you keep acting with that feeling. Or else, you are not blessed. Being sincere is the most important thing if you want to enjoy your life, nothing to be worried. Can you just thank her for everything she has done? She’s sacrifice a lot. No offense. It’s a fact. And it’s a big sin once you break the rule, no matter for what reason. The principal is just the same, nothing can change that.

Why don’t you put yourself in the situation and think what the person or what you will feel if someone say something or do something that hurt you. Again and again. I don’t know how to explain such feeling. No words can describe it.

Oh God, help me. Give me strength to face this again. I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to cry. It’s just wasting my tears, but I’m done. Huh ! I was extremely exhausted. What a wonderful holiday am I going to enjoy this time? I wish to, but I don’t think so. Even the first day I was ‘enjoying’ a very annoying story. I guess it’s over because I think everyone were just matured enough to stop such a nonsense thing to happen repeatedly, just pray a lot and work out to have a better life in another world in future. Unfortunately, it’s not. That was some kind of childish things and hmm, so sad !

I’m speechless for a moment once I heard the story and guess what; it was on my first day I’m being home, at the beginning of the year. It’s a kind of very upset feeling and kept me down for the whole day. When I keep thinking of the ‘story’, it just can’t stop my anger or even my tears. I have to be strong. It works before but I don’t have such strength anymore. It’s getting worse when I think of future. I am not dream to stand in that challenging moment but, I’m scared if the time will come. Enough for everything. Enough. I want to have a beautiful life like others. Please, give me the chance. I want that opportunity. I’m begging for that and I always pray for it.

Being rude is not my wishful list for this year. But some people might drive me to be so and for now it’s under control. My level of patience still affords it and I hope it was endless. My anger just forces me to write this. I can’t express it face to face. I hold this for a very long time ago. You don’t know my feeling. You are not in my situation. You just do whatever you want and throw the words without think of others feeling. It’s very bad. Seriously !

But never mind. Smile girl, smile ^_^ . Everything happens for a reason. Yes, I believe that. God does not test us if He knows we can’t handle that. He always shows the directions in overcoming the obstacles. And that is a sign of love from Him. He wants to see how we obey and trust Him. Thank you Allah.

So now, I just try to think positively. Be positive, be positive, be positive. Accepting stress is not such a good situation for me. I can’t control my emotion well. I’m still learning for the sake of it. People said I was sentimental. Perhaps, the environment ‘guide’ me to be a sentimental person. But what’s the problem of being sentimental. It’s not disturbing anybody right. Yes, I’m a sentimental person and I’m proud of it ^_^. It shows me the way to care about others and think of other people’s feeling before doing something or throw out the words.

Ok, I need to stop here. Don't want to talk about it anymore for the moment. I really hate it !!!

-chow chin chow-

Da-Da

# Why Suddenly?? #

Hallu Hallu...

Apakah petanda semuanya ini??? ahahahaha..i dun understand lew..why suddenly it happened? Adakah ini suratan atau kebetulan??? ahahahaha..i hope it was just d' co-incident..but it was inter-connected however..

Mcm ade instinct org di sane ngn org di sini la plak kn...nevermind, got 1 thing that made me happy by d' way. At least i could smile again for that...thank you so much ^_^ really miss d' moment...it was great ! hahaha

Only me know wut happened..my roomie as well I guess..hew hew hew ~ Keep d' secret ok dear ! ^_^

Miss bangau t'sayang...bila mau pulang neh??? Udah rindu bangat sama kamu neh..Sampai kapan kamu mau tinggalkan aku seorang diri di sini??? Tega hatimu meninggalkan aku..aku sedih bangat sih !

Wah ha ha...tetibe dok ckp indon la plaks ~ Woii bangauuuuu...pat la balik weyh,bosan siot sorg2 kt bilik (!_!)

Senarnye bangau kesayanganku p kuantan meet her hunny bunny...ihihihihi :) Sok mlm die smpi melaka..gonna pick her tomorrow at 11 pm..mlm ni kene lew tido sorg2 lagi..haih !~

Hmmm...ade keje mau disetelkan. Nanti sonang2 den hapdate laie otey !!!

-chow chin chow-

Da-Da

# Sad..Sad & Sad #

Mmmmmmmmmm.....

Aku tgh sedih...i dun like dis feeling !~ it makes me sick...nape nk kene ulang lagi situation yg sama even for d' good intention of yours...mmg la aku tumpang gembira kn tp rs sedih yg lebih skrg ni...

Sebab aku sedih?

Besfren aku,anis nk fly g UK bulan depan...aaaaa ank nk tinggai aku lg skali wei !~ =((  nnt aku nk citer2,gosip2,ngadu2 kt sape? ank x dak kt msia nk kepo2..mmg la ada tenet tp x best..feel die ade kureng cket..sungguh sedih hatiku ini...ahha ayat jiwang la plak. Tp serious la wei, aku cam tbayang2 dh situation aku nk jmp ank minggu depan ni...musti ada emotional session nnt...hahaha !~ Dlm blog ni leh la aku dok gelak2..depan ank nnt..adoiiyaiii (!_!) Tak suker leewww...

Bkn nk emotional ke ape...ye la kan,dok sedih2 cam kwn aku tu nk g mane je..die nk fly sambung study je,bkn nk g perang pun...hew hew. Nak uat camne,nk rs sedih tetibe. .x tau nk explain,speechless ! 

Ok la..nk tido ! nite nite ~

-chow chin chow-

Da-da

# Persandingan Luar Biasa #

Pada suatu masa yang ditetapkan...

Kita pasti dirisik..

Pertunangan sejak azali..

Di hujung hidup nanti..

Berlangsungnya perkahwinanmu dengan maut..

Hantarannya..sakit dan nazak..

Tamu bertandang menghadiahkan esak tangis..

Pengantin dimandikan..

Dipakaikan baju cantik putih..

Wangian gaharu dan cendana..

Keranda jadi pelaminan..

Pengantin bersanding sendirian..

Di arak keliling kampung..

Berkompangkan azan dan kalimah kudus..

Akad nikahnya bacaan talkin..

Berwalikan liang lahat..

Saksi pula nisan-nisan..

Siraman air mawar..

Keluarga terdekat menepung tawar..

Tiba masa pengantin..

Menunggu sendirian..

Malam pertama bersama KEKASIH..

Di kamar bertilamkan tanah..

Dan Dia menuntut janji..

Sucikah kita tatkala berpadu..

Pernahkah taubat sepanjang hayat..

Atau terkubur bersama dosa-dosa...

Dan Dia Kekasih itu..

Menetapkanmu ke syurga..

Atau melemparkan dirimu ke neraka

# Rejab, Syaaban & Ramadhan #

Rejab bulan menabur benih
Syaaban bulan menyiram tanaman
Ramadhan bulan menuai.

Rejab menyucikan badannya
Syaaban menyucikan hatinya
Ramadhan menyucikan rohnya.

Rejab bulan menghfirah (keampunan)
Syaaban bulan syafaat
Ramadhan bulan menggandakan kebajikkan.

Rejab bulan taubat
Syaaban bulan muhibbah
Ramadhan dilimpahi pahala amalan seperti hujan mencurah.

Rejab digandakan 70 pahala
Syaaban digandakan 700 pahala
Ramadhan digandakan 1000 pahala.

# Nisfu Syaaban on my 21st #

Assalammualaikum...^_^

Finally i'm back...updating my blog as previous,a very long time ago..almost 6 months of silence.

Let me start back my blog with giving the information about "Nisfu Syaaban" since yesterday night was Nisfu Syaaban...ehehehehe

Bulan Syaaban adalah bulan mulia iaitu bulan yang terletak di antara bulan Rejab padanya Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. melakukan Isra' dan Mikraj dan bulan Ramadhan dimana padanya seluruh umat Islam diwajibkan mengerjakan puasa Ramadhan salah satu dari rukun Islam yang mulia. Ketika bulan tersebut di hubungkait yang rapat kerana sesungguhnya orang yang mensucikan badannya pada bulan Rejab maka ia akan mensucikan hatinya pada bulan Syaaban dan orang yang mensucikan hatinya pada bulan Syaaban akan mensucikan rohnya pada bulan Ramadhan.

Sesungguhnya bulan Rejab untuk memohon keampunan dari segala dosa dan bulan Syaaban pula untuk memperbaiki hati dari segala cacat dan bulan Ramadhan pula untuk memberi penerangan hati sedang malam Lailatul Qadar adalah mendekatkan diri kepada Allah s.w.t.

Nisfu dlm bahasa arab beerti setengah. Nisfu Syaaban beerti setengah bulan Syaaban. Malam Nisfu Syaaban adalah malam lima-belas Syaaban iaitu siangnya empat-belas haribulan Syaaban.

Malam Nisfu Syaaban merupakan malam yang penuh berkat dan rahmat selepas malam Lailatul qadr.

Hari nisfu sya'aban adalah hari dimana buku catatan amalan kita selama setahun diangkat ke langit dan diganti dengan buku catatan yang baru. Catatan pertama yang akan dicatatkan dibuku yang baru akan bermula sebaik sahaja masuk waktu maghrib, (15 Sya'aban bermula pada 14 hb sya'aban sebaik sahaja masuk maghrib) .....pasal buku catatan ini ade yg ckp jgn caye sgt sbb xde istilah buku lama n baru utk catatan amalan kite..wallahualam ! :)

Sebaiknye...mlm nisfu syaaban, kite baca Yasin 3x lepas solat Maghrib.
Yasin pertama : mohon dipanjangkan umur untuk beribadat kepada Allah

Yasin kedua : mohon rezeki yang halal untuk beribadat kepada Allah

Yasin ketiga : mohon ditetapkan iman dan Islam & mati di dalam iman

Pastu, kite puasa pada siangnya (mulai pagi esoknya-15 Syaaban) ^_^

Kebetulan la plak kn...smlm jd gerhana bulan,start dlm pukul 3 pagi. Aku ngn rumet aku x tido lg time tu. So ktorg tgg smpi kol 4 n kuar g kt koridor tgk gerhana bulan, masa tu bulan baru separuh gelap.Cantik sgt ! ^_^ Subhanallah...

Masa tgh jd gerhana lak slalunye org uat solat sunat gerhana. Doa mintak apa yg kite hajatkan..insya-Allah mudah-mudahan dikabulkan :)

Nisfu Syaaban ngn gerhana bulan senarnye ade cerite berkait psl diri aku,tp x yah lew nk cite..hew hew hew :p

Ok la...cukup dlu utk kali ni. Sok sok free aku update lg.

Just wanna add 2 more entries utk renungan bersama :)

-chow chin chow-

Da-Da